Code of Blue
As I write this post tonight, I write it with a heavy heart. You may think Code of Blue is about police officers, but it is not, it's about Conductors, Train Conductors to be exact. See they too wear a Blue Uniform. They also have a code, where they seem to think you should never tell on one another. It seems the ones that make sure you know about this code are the ones that are doing something wrong and don't want to, how should I say, lose their jobs.
I spoke to an old friend the other day, he now carries a big responsibility at the company and asked about a situation with an employee, and how he felt she lied about something, much to his surprise I informed him, she had not lied. The men that work for him had lied.
This company has a lot of managers that turn a blind eye to the things that go on in the ranks. Especially when it comes to their men. Let me tell you some of the things I've witnessed or were a target of and how the managers try to intimidate you into not moving forward.
First, let me say I loved this company, and time had cured me of that. When I first came out to the ranks it was for two reasons; one, I could not believe that what they say is true, when people find you to be a threat they will do anything to take you down, so when it happened to me I had to regroup and rethink how I was going to fight back. So I walked away from a job I absolutely loved. I hate to call it a job because that implies I had to work and when you love what you are doing it's not work, it's absolute joyous! So I regrouped and decided I would come out to the ranks to learn this industry and maybe go back into management with a vast of knowledge and be a little more valuable and contribute in the best way I could.
Boy, did I learn this industry, and in the process, I learned a lot of lessons. I learned that men don't like a woman that can do a job they feel is for them. I learned that people are cowards and yes men, I learned that when you're a threat in a mans' world they too will try to take you down, physically hurt you, spread vicious rumors. Lie to save themselves or make themselves look good. Talk about your children, sabotage your job, and that's just the people at my level. In upper management they have no qualms about threatening, lying and making up things when they don't like someone, and some have gone so far as to bullying someone until he was no longer with us.
I hate what this company has become, or maybe it was always this way, and I didn't even realize it because it hadn't personally touched me.
I've had many Aha moments at this place...screaming at me to walk entirely away, not just walk run. Since I've been here, my management job was sabotage, and I walked away from it. Knowing the way I felt about the organization at the time, I figured I'll learn it and do more, but instead, I've been told that I belong in the kitchen, that I should find someone to take care of me, maybe they could work here instead. I've been the target of harassment, lies, and even been told they wished I would die already, not leave but die. Most recently, I witnessed a Trainmaster lie in an investigation about something he didn't have to lie about and if he could do that about something so simple what would he do to someone he doesn't like out here. Another Trainmaster I repeatedly went to about these men not doing their job, but all he did was tell them to dot their I's and cross their T's when they work with me.
I personally have been thrown off a moving train, taken to EEO for defending myself, while the Conductor involved went to a union meeting and encourage all of the men to blackball me, not talk to me, not work with me. I've had my orders thrown away, one conductor threw my orders at me and said you can read, while another hissed at me like a dog every time he saw me. Others called me names. This went on for a year and a half. There were times I wondered if the people I knew from here felt the way I was feeling about this place when they committed suicide.
I have to say I miss the people that were here when I first started. I don't like the toxic environment this is and has become, I feel that it is the way it is because they have minions working as bosses and that one hundred percent needs to change.
Remember...Be Inspired to Be Better, to Listen and to Dream Big!
Sending mad Love to all...
...Mayra
I spoke to an old friend the other day, he now carries a big responsibility at the company and asked about a situation with an employee, and how he felt she lied about something, much to his surprise I informed him, she had not lied. The men that work for him had lied.
This company has a lot of managers that turn a blind eye to the things that go on in the ranks. Especially when it comes to their men. Let me tell you some of the things I've witnessed or were a target of and how the managers try to intimidate you into not moving forward.
First, let me say I loved this company, and time had cured me of that. When I first came out to the ranks it was for two reasons; one, I could not believe that what they say is true, when people find you to be a threat they will do anything to take you down, so when it happened to me I had to regroup and rethink how I was going to fight back. So I walked away from a job I absolutely loved. I hate to call it a job because that implies I had to work and when you love what you are doing it's not work, it's absolute joyous! So I regrouped and decided I would come out to the ranks to learn this industry and maybe go back into management with a vast of knowledge and be a little more valuable and contribute in the best way I could.
Boy, did I learn this industry, and in the process, I learned a lot of lessons. I learned that men don't like a woman that can do a job they feel is for them. I learned that people are cowards and yes men, I learned that when you're a threat in a mans' world they too will try to take you down, physically hurt you, spread vicious rumors. Lie to save themselves or make themselves look good. Talk about your children, sabotage your job, and that's just the people at my level. In upper management they have no qualms about threatening, lying and making up things when they don't like someone, and some have gone so far as to bullying someone until he was no longer with us.
I hate what this company has become, or maybe it was always this way, and I didn't even realize it because it hadn't personally touched me.
I've had many Aha moments at this place...screaming at me to walk entirely away, not just walk run. Since I've been here, my management job was sabotage, and I walked away from it. Knowing the way I felt about the organization at the time, I figured I'll learn it and do more, but instead, I've been told that I belong in the kitchen, that I should find someone to take care of me, maybe they could work here instead. I've been the target of harassment, lies, and even been told they wished I would die already, not leave but die. Most recently, I witnessed a Trainmaster lie in an investigation about something he didn't have to lie about and if he could do that about something so simple what would he do to someone he doesn't like out here. Another Trainmaster I repeatedly went to about these men not doing their job, but all he did was tell them to dot their I's and cross their T's when they work with me.
I have to say I miss the people that were here when I first started. I don't like the toxic environment this is and has become, I feel that it is the way it is because they have minions working as bosses and that one hundred percent needs to change.
Remember...Be Inspired to Be Better, to Listen and to Dream Big!
Sending mad Love to all...
...Mayra
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